24 August, 2006
if nothing and no one matters,
then what does?

grades?
life?
(dare i say) DREAMS?

occasionally i see it through the lives of pple that have no intersection with my own.
(do i own a life?)
the pple whose life does intersect with mine, most of the time they dont know what they want. so they do what everyone else does.
am i not one of them.
maybe everyone should just STOP THINKING and be stupid drab grey stones/concrete blocks whatever. then we all wouldnt waste so much time discussing and blogging abt stuff tt we dont really do, or have the guts to do. STOP THINKING ABOUT NOT THINKING. just......, stone.

the crabbytoiletimpauntie told me my painting was good. and i said: NOT REALLY. its wierd when pple suddenly just try to be nice, u know? it was like she was trying to kid herself tt i forgot abt the incident where she barked at me the day before.

" WHY?! THAT (other) TOILET CANNOT USE ARR?!! "
god i was so traumatised i think i'll remember tt scene for a longlonglong time.

oops.
DONT. THINK.
do pw! wr! rpg! (and some other abbreviation among the hundreds that flood our lives. its like some common alien language. wooO. oxymoron. kewwwWL. ha.)

i wna paint the day away! maybe blue or black would be nice.

12:10 am*